During an acute mental health episode last year, I emailed my department chair complaining about the "tone" (and wording choice) of some of my former professor's communications, accusing her of triggering my anxiety. (The details are in my post history on stack exchange academia.) The chair then emailed me saying that he was meeting with the dean and bringing a formal grievance against my professor. (His words were that "considerable time" was being devoted to "formally record my specific grievances.)
I admired this professor and received an A in both of her courses. Thus, I later felt guilty and went to every level of administration requesting the grievance be dismissed and explained that I had written to the chair during a mental health episode. Everyone, however, from the dean to the provost etc. said that there was never a grievance, nor was the professor harmed by my complaint. Their statements however, contradict the chair's email, which he forwarded to the associate dean. Meanwhile, I've been sick with guilt and anxiety for over a year from this.
I initially asked if a grievance can be retracted, but the question was closed for being "off-topic." Obviously, anyone can ask to retract their grievance, but what I wanted to ask was if it being written during an acute anxiety episode matters. In other words, even though I was in a hypersensitive state at the time it was written (and my anxiety had been out control for months prior to that), could they still have found her conduct unprofessional and reprimanded or disciplined her? (She wasn't aware of my anxiety disorder.)
I think the worst part of my complaint was where I said that a particular phrase she used (in a prior communication) caused me extreme anxiety and then said "Although distracted, at least I was not near the point of self-harm. Imagine, however, if these interactions occurred with a severely depressed student?" The phrase wasn't offensive, but I reported being affected by it, so I worry that they reprimanded her and/or punished her (i.e. docked her pay, denied her emerita status etc. [she was in the process of retiring ]).
Also, would the nature of the mental illness matter in such situations? For example, would it be easier to retract a grievance/punishment if the "aggrieved" party was suffering from paranoid delusions and later, after treatment, wanted to retract the grievance/accusation than it would be if the complainant was "merely" hypersensitive due to anxiety? In the former case, it's probably clear that the accused didn't commit the act they were accused of whereas something like tone is more subjective. Thus, even if most people wouldn't have been affected by the professor's tone/wording choice, they investigated the grievance and acted based upon my (stated) subjective feelings at the time.
I hope the legal nature of my question is clear enough to have it reopened now.